Making Your Goals Happen

Why it took me 6 months to change a light bulb

You would think it was easy, right? Go to the closet and pull out a light bulb, set up a ladder and switch out a light bulb, throw the old one away. The whole event would take less than 5 minutes and the rewards would be to light an important part of the room and have the happy feelings that go with completing a task. Why couldn’t I just get it done earlier? Or even delegate this simple task? Well, it’s not quite as simple as that. It never is, as I have learned.

You see, it has been dark in that corner ever since we moved in 6 months ago. The bulb waited silently. Patiently. Just waiting. I would see it every day and think, “Gosh, I should change the light bulb.” Every day! And it wouldn’t get done. I’d walk on. Some days there was more internal tough talk, “I REALLY need to change that bulb. This is ridiculous.” Yet, it remained unchanged. Still dark. And I suppose if it lit the mirror in the bathroom, it would have been changed sooner.

But this bulb was not really important to impede my daily life, but annoying enough to keep in my consciousness. Just enough to say, “Hey, I’m here. You might like it if I’m brighter for you. Maybe not, but wouldn’t you like to know?” I wasn’t curious enough yet to find the answer to that question. Yet. I just didn’t want to do it.

Months went on. Why couldn’t I change the stupid light bulb? Seriously?! I had the tools, right? I had everything I needed… except for the desire to do it. I would get down on myself, go through the pros and cons, still not change the light bulb and hurry to do other things. Little sighs would escape at the silliness of this predicament, which probably took more time than doing the task, but I digress. “Just change it!” Said one part of me. “No”, said another. The No’s always won until one day, I just did it. Hurray! It felt so good! Illumination was wonderful.

But then I wondered why it was so hard for me to do in the first place.

We had moved to this new home in the fall and we loved every inch of it. We also had a newborn and a three and a half year old. We were getting the previous home ready to sell that required cleaning, sorting, general sprucing up to make it even more tantalizing to potential buyers. For our new home, we had boxes, furniture, books, a new way of living and it all had to get figured out and sorted to efficiency, ease and happiness. What did I do?

We had a list a mile long.

On top of doing the everyday chores, I chose the big tasks first when I had time: move furniture in so we have a place to sleep and work, kitchen